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'I
was sleeping with their husband and father' By Garwin Davis
Simpson was intimately involved with the husband of a woman he considered a friend and who had sought from him, marital advice. "As far as she knew, I was a good friend of her husband and someone that she really liked," he notes, in a very sombre tone that betrayed a feeling of remorse. "She was caught in a situation that was totally beyond her control. Married out of sheer convenience "Her husband was a homosexual and had married her out of sheer convenience, only that she didn't know it. With both having very successful careers, the marriage seemed like a good idea at first but had gone awry over the years. Then out of the blue, she was asking me, the man who had won over her husband's heart, for advice." For the 25-year-old Simpson, it all started eight years ago when as a member of the Manning Cup team of a prominent high school in Kingston he met a man, a strong supporter of the team, he said, and who would later have a profound impact on his life. According to Simpson, they both took an instant liking to each other and before long the man started to shower him with gifts. "I was a star player on the team and he treated me like one," explained Simpson. "He gave me clothes, money and basically anything he felt I would be in need of. I never thought anything of it because during my tenure as a football player, I had seen enough pampering of star athletes by over-zealous supporters." But when pressed
further, Simpson explained that the relationship with his friend evolved beyond his football playing days and to the point where he started visiting his home. "I really enjoyed meeting his family," Simpson said. "They were very nice to me, especially his wife. I was introduced as an understudy to her husband, someone who was trying to learn the business that he was in. She bought it hook, line and sinker. As far as my parents were concerned, I was out visiting friends. I mean, I was 21 years old and had the right to a life." Simpson remembered that their relationship suddenly changed when he was at his friend's house one Saturday afternoon watching football. "We were home alone," he said. "His wife and children were visiting relatives in the country and were not due back until the following day." Simpson said that his host recommended that they watched a pornographic movie to which he agreed. "It was a tape with gay men making out which was quite fine with me," he said, now clearly blushing. "I cannot recall what triggered it off but before long we started kissing and fondling each other. He told me that he had wanted me since school days but that I was too young. I asked him about his wife to which he told me not to worry about her. I persisted and then he confessed that he was never in love with her but got married to conceal his true sexuality. We had sex right there and then on the carpet," Simpson explained. Go away for weekends Simpson said that the relationship grew stronger and to where they would both go away for weekends on the North Coast at times. "I was enjoying every minute of it except for one sticky point," he noted. "I was getting too close to his wife and kids and had started to feel guilty. I was over their house regularly and had to balance being a friend of the family and at the same time knowing that I was sleeping with their husband and father. I expressed these feelings to my lover who always reassured me that everything was okay." He noted that the thing he had most feared came at him like "a ton of bricks" when his lover's wife told him that she felt that her husband was cheating on her. "I almost fainted," Simpson said. "I wasn't sure if she was on to something so I remained calm. She almost floored me, however, when she asked me if I could assist in finding out if her suspicions were true. I promised her I would, what else could I have said." Simpson said he told his friend about what was happening but he surprisingly dismissed it with shrug of the shoulders. "I was taken off guard by his reaction," he added. "I was shocked that he didn't see anything to worry about and in a way I was scared. I thought of how scandalous it would if anybody should find out. I thought of my parents and how disappointed they would be. I thought of everything but there were no answers." Simpson added that he knew it was up to him to get out of the relationship, not that he wanted to, but because he didn't see another option. "It was a difficult thing to do but I started withdrawing myself from the situation," he noted. "My friend confronted me and I told him the truth. He broke down when he realised I was serious and said that he didn't want to lose me. The pain was too much for me and I broke down in his arms and cried too." Had to get away Simpson said that he left for the United States shortly afterwards where he spent nearly seven months. "I had to get away," he said. "That was the only way I could have gotten over it." He said that his friend has since been separated from his wife and is now living overseas. "He is doing okay," Simpson said. "We have spoken a couple of times but we have both moved on. And yes, I do think about him a lot I mean, I was in love with the guy." He said that he knew of people who have been involved in similar situations, noting that "there are a lot of gay people in this country that are trapped in loveless marriages but are afraid to get out," he said. "My story is one that is familiar to a lot of people." |
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Simpson laughingly admitted that "it felt like courtship" and that he
felt an instant chemistry with his newly found friend. "This, I am sure,
will be difficult for you to understand but there was fire burning when
we first laid eyes on each other," he added. Simpson said that he had
known since age ten that he was gay and had his first real encounter with
a man six years later. "It was with a much older man," he noted. "There
was no penetration, it was just strictly oral sex. It didn't last, though,
he wasn't really my type."
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